it is a classically beautiful fall day with cool breezes and hot sunshine. i just put my cake in the oven. it's a version of this, except minus the red wine because the thing that makes this birthday special is celebrating with my guys, one of whom isn't quite 21.
funny how things change. 5 years ago i was celebrating what i dubbed "the big two-seven." a dj friend hosted a special night at an athens bar just for me. my grad school and yoga friends came out. my athens siblings were there. jesse and i were just getting back together. we all got rowdy, stayed up too late, drank too much, and felt like crap the next day. it was a blast. one for the books (facebook).
this morning i was quietly greeted by my two most special boys. tip-toe down the stairs, smiles and kisses, happy-birthday-mama wishes.
tonight the three of us will eat my favorite homemade pizza, followed by cake and ice cream, a walk, bed time for little guy, a glass (or two) of wine for mama and daddy. maybe a movie, maybe some knitting, probably early to bed. it won't be epic (not that any of us used that word way back in 2007). no one will be untagging themselves from pictures on facebook in the morning.
when we wake up tomorrow it will be another beautiful fall day filled with all the things that fill our days: laundry, running, playing, cooking, eating, sleeping, cleaning - a lot like today.
and not that it needs saying, but i wouldn't have it any other way. this is the life that i imagined and wanted to want, but i couldn't quite understand how contentment worked. sure, sometimes i long for a night out, for a weekend, and i should work harder to make that happen every now and then, but when it's all said and done, what i want the most is just to be right here with my boys.
but let's not forget where we came from.....
that's serious party. face. dance. awesome. yeah.